Catch 22
January 7, 2012
Everyone is allowed an out of character moment right? But what happens when the out of character moves more into your character. Problem – Solution? Still trying to figure it out.
While I like to think I’m a responsible adult and I have life figured out but as the days pass and as I get older I’m beginning to realize I don’t have it all figured out.
Every now and again – I just want to scream “What’s wrong with me.” Not a question but more so a realization that something is wrong. Wrong might be slightly harsh but it stirs the waters that runs deep while the surface remains unmoved.
So the more I try to figure out the “plan” the more I move further and further away from myself. But then again who am I really? Sort of a catch 22.
Trying to move forward while keeping the sense of your past self. Tricky! Someone always gets hurt. At this point, I feel bad for the old me. The experienced, independent, always rational, well put together, responsible, the voice of reason and the highly calculated me.
Shape shifting to the inexperienced, irrational, irresponsible, spontaneous, and rebellious side.
Seems like I’m moving to what everyone else is trying to move away from.
