The lie
January 7, 2012
Some may say I have a reason, justification, excuse for things I do. My response is yes. Why wouldn’t I? Everyone has a reason for their actions. It’s your choice to share them and be honest or lie. I’ve noticed more and more that things aren’t always what they seem.
I’m a good listener. Some may say too good with a memory that could tell you what T-shirt you worn on a date. It’s not perfect but it’s selective. So I listen to people and believe what they say to be true. But people lie. I have the general faith that honesty is the best policy. But overall I learned people just want to be lied to which is why they choose to lie.
I listened and agreed with you. I reassured you that this is ok, I was fine and I’m going on the understanding that after months of the same discussion we were on even footing. I was wrong. I shouldn’t have been listening to what you’ve been saying to me all along. I should have been listening to the subtext. I needed to read your mind. Unfortunately, my magic 8 ball was broken.
So it’s not a believe me when I say “I don’t want a relationship and I don’t want anyone to get hurt” but let’s say we’re a couple. To me that line translates to I’m single. I’m not in a relationship because you dont want one. In all truth ad honest – I have no idea what I wanted but I was willing to take the chance to find out. But all along the conversation was “I don’t want a relationship” I don’t understand how that can be confused and if I just missed out on the writing between the lines. I didn’t think there was any. Oh boy, was I wrong….
Now my understanding is after months of being in a relationship – I’m now single. Funny how things work out or don’t.
